Rapid Fire

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Rapid Fire

Our bodies require time to integrate all the pieces of the bigger picture-energetically, emotionally, physically and spiritually.  Because our humanly bodies have a limit to what they can absorb when in rapid fire we unconsciously stress ourselves to a point of dis-ease and disharmony. When balance is disrupted, we expose ourselves to a greater potential of heart attacks, cancer, stroke, emotional/psychological breakdown, sepsis, autoimmune deficiencies etc. READ MORE...

 

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Fitting In

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Fitting In

Does anybody know what it means to fit in? When does it feel right?  As you hop on the path of authenticity and begin to shed what you've been told, the tendency is to become that “new” someone who no longer “fits into” the old patterns with your circle of friends and yes, even family. READ MORE...

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Trusting the Knowing

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Trusting the Knowing

This post is a reminder to me and all my readers to allow our brilliance to shine and carry us to a deeper knowing is an extraordinary gift we give ourselves and other. My son at age the age of 17 was able to shine his light on me.  We all have our own timing as we are blessed with the ability to grow and transcend our fears.. 

 

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We Stay

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We Stay

How do we stay when our higher self-knows better?  How do we learn to make "right" decisions based on freedom, not fear. When we get derailed (a human experience) we question decisions we’ve made over and over again until one day we simply stop questioning. It’s in that aha moment we simply know we are all right. READ MORE..

 

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A Nine Year

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A Nine Year

A Nine Year. A year to end the breach we have with ourselves. A prayer to the Universe to uphold positive energy as we set the tone for a new year- a year numerologically of new beginnings. READ MORE...

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 Be Audacious-Provide Solutions

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Be Audacious-Provide Solutions

How amazing we are when we open our hearts to living an Audacious Life. We set into motion a set of tools that we automatically employ to provide solution and resolution to current and past emotional learned behavioral patterns. READ MORE...

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Invisible Child to Audacious Adult

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Invisible Child to Audacious Adult

WELCOME TO MY NEW WEBSITE! I would like to share with you a very powerful transformation that has occurred over the past five months, one that lovingly challenged me to take a bold leap of faith (and deep knowing) so I could move into something more aligned with who I am today. May my insights and revelations entice you to take your next bold step forward....READ MORE

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Important or Empowered: A Major Difference

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Important or Empowered: A Major Difference

I come across many people who need to feel important. They’re the ones that know everything and have all the “right” suggestions and just seem to be filled with “right” answers. They always have the last word. So this has peaked my interest.  I asked myself,  “Is this empowerment or does thing stem from a need to feel important and recognized?”  My heart immediately hones in on the little child screaming to be seen and heard...READ MORE

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Single and In Love With Me!

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Single and In Love With Me!

If I am not for me who will be for me
If I am just for me, what am I
If not now, when?
Hillel

How many times have you prayed that the Universe will grant you yet another opportunity to love and be loved?...READ MORE

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Thanksgiving

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Thanksgiving

I am overjoyed to announce that the weather finally dipped below 80 degrees. The next six months will be heavenly.

I would like to wish all my friends and readers a very Happy Thanksgiving Holiday. The leaves have now turned in most places in the US. Although, I sit in my beautiful home in sunny AZ, I’m able to reflect with sweet memories all the years past of this beautiful time of the year....READ MORE

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Heart Centered-Purpose Driven

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Heart Centered-Purpose Driven

It’s been a few months since I published a newsletter and for that I apologize. On a personal note I will share these past two months have been a time of transition and quieting. In that quieting, I gave myself permission to open, surrender and allow on a whole new level.

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January 2015

Happy New Year!

May the year 2015 be a year of wonderment, grace and openings for all.

It’s our choice to make this year a pivotal one as we continue to expand and be-come all we desire to be.  All that’s required is the willingness to say yes to healing, joy and right alignment.

Remember we are always in process, never standing still.  My beloved teacher, Rabbi David Cooper, taught me this.  David would say, “I am David-ing, Laura is Laura-ing.  I cherish his wisdom.

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Honoring of Self

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Honoring of Self

I hope everyone had a wonderful summer and ready for what is ahead as we turn the corner of the last part of 2014. Hard to believe it’s almost October.

Wow what a seven-week journey I have been on!!  I am grateful for the experiences I have and would like to share some events that shifted my consciousness and awakened me to even more understanding and compassion. Where do I start?

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Receiving

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Receiving

After two months on the east coast, I’ve returned to Tucson, AZ.

In reflection, these months have been about clarity and completion-a journey of releasing residual energetic patterns from the past so I may move ahead and embrace the next chapter of my life (no pun intended.)

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Setting Up Camp at the Edge of the Cliff

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Setting Up Camp at the Edge of the Cliff

What do we do when we get to the edge of the cliff? Do we set up camp and rest?

Fear keeps us from leaping forward, yet our knowing keeps us from going back down the hill.

So we sit and set up camp at the edge of the cliff.

I was recently in a lively conversation with a friend who’s in that in-between state of listening to his inner knowing vs. listening to the personality-self desiring safety. Listening to him I had this vision of his situation. Knowing all to well he is not alone in this in-between state, this was a perfect blog post.

What I saw was his setting up a tent at the edge of a cliff and just sitting and resting. It’s a safe place. It’s that in-between place-a place of, oh no, what do I do now! Do I leap off the cliff knowing, trusting the net will appear or do I pack up my tent and head back down the mountain?

The reality is this place, this being on the edge of the cliff, IS the place where the next huge shift occurs. This, of course, can be terrifying if we don’t fully believe in our higher knowing, god self, what ever you choose to call it. It’s the place in our heart where we make the decision we must move ahead and take the risk that all will be well.

It’s the place where shift occurs!

The first time I experienced being on the edge I actually thought I was having a psychotic break. It was during my first silent meditation retreat. When I shared my experience with my teacher at the time, David Cooper, he said, “You went to the edge. Good for you.”

So that’s what going to the edge looks like! I was grateful I wasn’t really losing it.

It’s in that place we learn what our next step is. At that point we have the choice of turning around and going backwards (although I am not sure that’s possible) or continuing to move forward with grace and courage. It is the time we deepen our awareness and trust that we are indeed guided, loved and held by the Universe and others.

The key is to recognize this is the journey and to acknowledge what is coming up that might keep you resting on the edge of the cliff rather than trusting enough to take the leap!

We know this is a metaphor for trusting our highest knowing that we are all supported therefore the net will always appear…

Questions to ponder-

How do you feel when you reach a certain point in your life and are unsettled as to the next step? Go deep into inquiry and see where you get stuck in old fears or conditioning.

Do you trust your true self, your inner guidance, your soul knowing?

Are you aware of the places and spaces that keep you in abeyance?

Are you willing to be the best you can be?

Trust in self is the key that unlocks all doors.

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Having the Courage to Love Yourself Enough

That is the first line in the book, Unlocking the Invisible Child!

What does it mean to have the courage to love yourself enough?

What does truly loving yourself unconditionally, without judgment or criticism, look like to you?

Do you have the courage to love yourself enough so you may love another?

When I began my healing journey it was about learning to love all of me-nothing left behind. For me, it meant loving and accepting my disfigured and disabled upper extremities. At the time, I had no awareness that deep emotional pain could source physical manifestation rather than the other way around. It’s the chicken and the egg story. Was I emotionally distraught, which led to physical illness? Or was the physical illness the cause of my emotional suffering. Many thanks to the scientific community, i.e. Dr. Bruce Lipton, Joe Dispenza and many more, which support the beliefs we carry, indeed alter our DNA. How was I to love myself when I felt so unacceptable?

What I remember the most was the profound shift that occurred when I became gentler, kinder, and more aware of how I hid-so afraid to be seen by others because I felt like damaged merchandise.

When I laid down my weapons and picked up my angel wings.

The willingness to open to the possibility of loving my hands, my arms, without judgment helped to relinquish the deep anger at ‘them’ for causing such immense pain and embarrassment for most of my life. I found that special place within where I was able to nurture me and grow to love my hands even in their disfigurement. 

I believed in my heart that if I could love my hands-they would love me back.

So that is precisely what I did! I would speak tenderly to my hands caressing them, loving them, as I visualized ‘them’ healed and whole, capable of doing what quote, unquote normal people did-everyday tasks like holding a glass with one hand, opening a door, a jar, holding onto things that I couldn’t do at the moment.

I allowed my heart to pave the road to what true healing really was. I consciously took it away from the physical and let my heart to do the work. 

I remember for my son’s bar mitzvah I was making chocolate basketball candies for the children’s gift bags and all the while I’m using my teeth to tie the ribbon together on top of the bag (because I did not have the dexterity/strength in my fingers) I started to laugh acknowledging how ridiculous, how abnormal this was! Yet, nothing could stop me from doing what I was doing, as difficult is it was.

That’s when I had an ‘aha’ moment.

My heart was guiding my hands.

The energy was flowing from my heart to my hands. This was the beginning of my heart healing. It never matter how dysfunctional or limited my hands were- I was living, consciously or unconsciously, in the heart energy. When I learned hands are in the heart chakra it became crystal clear just how powerful the hand-heart connection was.

In retrospect, my heart has always been in charge. The healing that occurred began with relinquishing my heart sadness and grief, the same grief, which manifested as a dis-ease in my hands.

Today, I never question how I look or if my hands will continue to gain strength etc. I never feel like damaged merchandise. I simply rest in the glow of my heart guidance.

Recently, I spoke to a woman, who after reading my book, stated her husband suffers from a similar physical dis-ease where he has lost muscle strength and control of his hands, sharing all he wants in this world is to be able to do something normal. Boy, do I understand.

I suggested she ask her husband what his heart wants. Take the energy away from the physical and go into the heart. That’s where the answers live.

The truth lies below the surface-deep within the soul.

In the healing work with my clients we journey to the source of the original pain to learn to love one self as a whole, not fractured, individual. You learn to love with grace and compassion for self and other.

We choose different ways to bring forth our soul pain and discomfort. I chose a physical dis-ease. Some choose co-dependencies of all kinds (addictions, eating disorders.)

Below are some questions you might want to ask yourself to help you identify what might be keeping you form loving yourself completely.

What part of you (physical, emotional, patterns of behavior) is difficult to love-accept-cherish?
Go deeper and identify the original source of your discomfort or dis-ease?
Are you willing to love all of you?
Are you willing to open to the grace of who you are?

When you reside in your heart-your heart will bring you unconditional love & acceptance.

That’s what it means to go to the heart-of-the-matter.

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Upcoming events

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Upcoming events

I hope you are having an exciting summer.

In June I made the decision to follow my heart, pack my car, and drive “from sea to shining sea.” I have witnessed the magnificent terrain of our land driving along RT 70, and later 80, through the winding mountain passes of Colorado, played on salt lakes in Utah, relaxed in the beauty of Lake Tahoe, energized (and hiked) Mt Shasta and walked the beaches of California’s breathtaking seascapes. I have met lovely, spirited people every step of the way. Everyday I sit in gratitude for my courage to listen to my inner voice.

My heart is filled with joy and I’m delighted to share my adventures and learning with you as the months go on.

 

I wanted to send out a quick email to let you know of a couple of opportunities to hear me speak.

I am so excited to be a guest speaker at the MiracleMindFest TeleSummit 2013. Simone Salmon, founder of MiracleMindFest, has been the host to incredible spiritual practitioners sharing their extraordinary passion for creating miracles and consciously committing to a constant state of mindfulness. Their practical advice is easy to apply in your OWN Life! And the exciting news is that you’ll be able to listen to these amazing interviews for FREE!!

I am honored to be amongst so many illuminated and gifted authors, healers, and speakers. Please join me with host and visionary Simone Salmon Tuesday, August 20th, 8:00 p.m. EST. Included will be a promotional package to assist you on your journey to health and wellness. Click here to sign up and get more detailswww.miraclemindfest.com.

And on September 4th at 8:00 p.m. EST I will be hosting a FREE teleclass on

What it Means to Heal for Real™

Come explore what it means to show up and Heal for Real™
Do you know what your healing potential is?
Are you ready to find out what’s blocking you from attaining your highest potential?

Thankfully, after eighteen surgeries and forty years of dis-ease I HEALED my HEART which opened up space to HEAL my BODY, MIND and SOUL. Today I offer the wisdom and lessons I learned along the way to you with humility, gentleness and grace.

My greatest joy is to be of service to people like you on your healing journey. You do not have to do this alone! Healing is a process and a commitment. This teleclass will provide tools to empower you to step-up-to-the-plate and live a life of joy and wellness.

Through intuitive guidance and channeled messages, individually and collectively, we’ll begin to explore what healing looks like for you and jump-start your process of discovery and recovery.

Click here to find out all the details.

Again, both of the teleclasses are free and recordings will be available if you sign up and for whatever reason cannot make the class live.

If either of these events resonates with you I highly encourage to take the step and sign up. As they say, the journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.

I look forward to connecting with you on the calls or however the universe brings us together.

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Belonging

Be-long (intransitive verb) to be part of; be in the right place; be accepted somewhere, fit in, feel right

Be-long-ing (noun) feeling at home

I have been asking myself most of my life, “Where do I belong?”

As I step away from the place I’ve called home for almost three years, I wonder where the next stop will be. I trust spirit will guide me and all I am to do is stay wide open and listen to my inner truth.

Not surprising, I started this blog over a month ago before I set out on my journey driving across the country. My intent was to ‘show up’ in places along the way and simply feel into the energy of the land, listening to whether or not the energy resonated. I have been on the road for five weeks. I have driven from New Jersey to California spending time in Colorado, Utah, and northern CA. This week I am resting on the central coast in California before I head to Oakland and then to Santa Fe to visit my dear friend. It will be nice to be in a familiar, known place.

Based on how I felt in the energy of Mt. Shasta, I’ve decided to return for two months to start writing my second book. The energy of the mountain fed me. After that, who knows!

This brings me full circle to the title of this blog, belonging!

The question, “Where do I belong,” triggers feelings I had as a child when I read my favorite children’s book by P.D Eastman “Are You My Mother?” I loved, and still love, that story! For me, it’s a metaphor of my life. Seeking, seeking, seeking the truth! I was always searching for my mother/my home as a young child. Something in me knew I was a ‘mis-fit’ way before my mental mind received the message. My energy/soul/higher self always knew!

I’ve spent my life stepping in and out of places which felt like home and then my energy would shift and the ‘safe feeling’ of home would slip away! For most of my life I assumed I was alone in those feelings until I found comfort in a spiritual community in Accord, NY in my late forties. That’s when I realized how many like-minded people there where with similar expressions. Its seems diagnostic of what it means to ‘be spiritual.’

We must constantly shift energies just to keep up with our-selves!

Spiritual minded people tend to be esoteric in nature, seekers questioning everything! It is exhausting to those who do not share similar beliefs.

I have witnessed this longing to belong in people with high energy-the ones who beat to a different drum. You will recognize them immediately-they have a sparkle in their eyes and a passion for life that can never be squelched. They desire to change the world. Included in this grouping are the children/adults typically identified as bi-polar or ADHD. In new paradigm they may be referred to as Indigos. Whether society views them through spiritual eyes or within the medical box they tend to have one thing in common: an intrinsic sense that they are a mis-fit in society. I have spoken to so many adults between the ages of 18 and 40 who experience this.

Whether in school or with friends and family, they challenge old paradigm beliefs and values, searching for the like-minded to resonate with. They simply desire to belong-we all do!

Abraham Maslow the esteemed psychologist speaks to how important belonging needs are in his hierarchy of need theory in 1943 ( “A Theory of Human Motivation”.)

“After physiological and safety needs are fulfilled, the third level of human needs is interpersonal and involves feelings of belongingness. This need is especially strong in childhood and can override the need for safety as witnessed in children who cling to abusive parents.

According to Maslow, humans need to feel a sense of belonging and acceptance among their social groups, regardless if these groups are large or small. For example, some large social groups may include clubs, co-workers, religious groups, professional organizations, sports teams, and gangs. Some examples of small social connections include family members, intimate partners, mentors, colleagues, and confidants. Humans need to love and be loved – both sexually and non-sexually – by others.[2] Many people become susceptible to loneliness, social anxiety, and clinical depression in the absence of this love or belonging element. This need for belonging may overcome the physiological and security needs, depending on the strength of the peer pressure.” 

As a woman with wisdom well into my fifties, I’ve learned home is where the heart is! I have been told my whole life that everywhere you go you bring yourself with you! I get that!

In holding that wisdom, my heart desires an external home where I may dwell amongst like-minded people, knowing my body-mind-soul resonates on every level. That is what this journey is all about for me. I wonder if it is for you too!

So I ask my readers, Do you feel you are a ‘mis-fit’ in society? Not a MISFIT but a MIS-FIT (simply you do not feel like you “fit”)

Have you found your home? Do you know where you belong?

These are challenging and important questions for all of us on the spiritual path!

I look forward to hearing your comments on this very deep and powerful topic.

Share your thoughts in the comments below.

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Dispelling the Legacy of a Father Long Gone

Are you aware of someone’s legacy you might be carrying?
Are there unresolved patterns you continue to recapitulate?

We grow up with fantasy, illusions and fairy tales that affect our ‘reality buttons.’ I guess I brought this fairy tale world to my own personal story as if it would give me a reason to believe.

I am sharing this very intimate revelation because it’s important to voice it.

My biological father died when I was 3 years old. At 58 I recognize fully how the yearning I carried for my deceased father has shaped my life. I’m also quite aware how residual fragments from this yearning born so long ago continue to show up in the men I encounter today.

My family never understood my longing for him as I continued to hold on tightly to his legacy. It was my way of keeping him alive and present in my life. I never question his character or what kind of man he was. Whether he was rich or poor, good or bad, heartbreaker or prince charming, the only thing that mattered was he was my biological father and he left me.

Because I held no judgment, I wouldn’t listen to anyone else judge him either. I had to believe, for my own well being, that he would have loved me if he were alive. So I gave him my heart.

I’ve said goodbye many times. Years ago I sat at his grave site and expressed the pain of his abandonment and my heartfelt yearning for him. Every time I looked in the mirror I saw him. Upon his grave I cried my eyes out letting him know that since he couldn’t hold me as a child I would sit on his lap now. I cried for all the losses, fantasies, and illusions my mind had conjured up.

Is that unconditional love or foolish illusion? I guess there’s a fine line between illusion and unconditional love. Alas, I am learning what that is.

In retrospect, I realize how easy it was to love him unconditionally. It was indeed a one-way street I made him bigger than life! The problem is that I brought that same sentiment to other men. This, of course, doesn’t work so well ‘in real life.’ Yes, It’s much more complicated to feed an illusion when the person is sitting right in front of you. But many of us try!

Every man I have known was subjected to my father’s legacy, including my son. I recognize the enormity of this acknowledgment. Up until now, most of the men in my life were unavailable in their own unique way, just as my father was. Yet, I stayed, and prayed, that someday they would show up and love me the way I required love.

Because I made my father so available in my mind I transferred the same pattern to the other men in my life. I convinced myself that they were available in reality when in fact what they said and who they were where not one and the same. Just more illusions! I have learned to let go and walk away. If what I desire is not what is standing in front of me I no longer hold on. No judgment, just knowing.

I’ll never know the truth of who my father was. I will never be able to look my father in the eye and know who he was in body, only in spirit. In the past, I would of given anything to look into his eyes to understand the pain, hold him gently and compassionately with love. It would of set both of us free.

I decided it was time to put his legacy to rest. When I drive to California in June I will visit Reno. My father was diagnosed at age 20 with cancer after serving in the US Air Force in the nuclear testing site in Nevada in the early 1950’s. It is there I will say good-bye. It is in that place I need to grieve, not at his grave, but the place that took his life away. It is there that I will thank him for this incredible learning that took place.

In the first chapter of my book I wrote, “I wanted to find the truth even if it killed me—and it almost did.”

The truth is not always what it appears to be. People are not always what they appear to be. It is our choice to hold onto illusions or see what really is! I’m grateful for this immense learning.

I am blessed to finally see the whole picture and dispel the illusion. Not only does it free me up, it frees my son and the partners I have known. Now I am ready to see everyone for who they really are! That’s huge!

That’s what dispelling illusions are all about.

Are you ready to dispel the illusions you hold onto to so you may move forward in awareness?

Share your thoughts in the comments below.

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